It’s December, and my quality of living is still pretty low. This week is especially off to a bangin’ start, as I’ve had heartburn for 3 days straight and cannot remove my eyeballs from the torture that is College Confidential. My life has become an endless cycle of 30 Rock, pretzel crisps, and One Direction, so I’m obviously the worst person alive right now, but at least I’m a getting a little bit more Lemon-y everyday.
Being a neurotic idiot presents itself with the unique challenge of balancing bad jokes with true, genuine human fear, so I’m walking the tightrope on a pretty regular basis. I love my life, and it’s totally awesome, but sometimes I wish my brain could just give me, like, a two-minute break. Even in my dreams, I’m aware that I’m dreaming, and I try to start plotting out ways to make things go better. Inception has done a lot for me, but not always in great ways.
Again, my life is totally privileged, and I appreciate that I can have things like Netflix and food and classes with smart people who patronize me in a loving way. December signals the holiday season, so I’m especially grateful that my family is gung-ho on decorating and giving gifts and eating good food. While I wish that my desire to spice it up with a little Judaism was respected (DAD), it’s always been nice and comforting to grow up with people who really believe in something like Christmas. Not exactly the religious aspect, but the celebration and togetherness of it all. It definitely gives me something to be less blah about.
Here are the things that are keeping me (mildly) sane this month:
I want to cuddle up with Zayn Malik when he wears turtlenecks. He gives off a very James Dean-y vibe, no? This is my favorite song off of their new album, Midnight Memories, which is basically this whole big testament to being on the cusp of adulthood and being angsty and lovely at the same time. This is their first time performing “Through the Dark” live, and I think they did an excellent job.
Teen queen Tavi Gevinson‘s December Editor’s Letter reminds me why I love to write. As someone who isn’t incredibly nostalgic about high school, she made me feel something. Incredible.
I just came across Zuhair Murad‘s s/s 2007 line on Tumblr, and I’m blown away. Wish I had stumbled upon it earlier. This look especially caught my eye — it’s delicate and lacy, yet still gives off a strong and feminine vibe. File under ‘Things I need a time machine for’.
Girls is one of my favorite television shows, because I want to be Lena Dunham. That short clip of her crying in her cubicle is basically me, whenever I’m watching something from Upworthy.com. Plus, Adam Driver is a great actor, and isn’t too hard on the eyes.
All I want for Christmas is Harry Styles and his indie sunglasses and multitude of flannels and head-wraps.
This is the shit that gives me LIFE.
Jennifer Lawrence is the queen of the world. In the words of B.J. Novak:
8tracks lead me to The Vamps, an adorable British band (slightly boy-band-ish, but I’ll give them the benefit of the doubt for the time being) who just nails it on every level.
Bless whoever made this, and bless both the hotness of the Beckham family and the uncanny resemblance between David and Liam Payne.
Paul Rudd + One Direction + so many guest stars = I am forever changed.
Current obsession: Pop Danthology 2013. Especially love the “Wrecking Ball”-“Locked Out of Heaven”-“I Knew You Were Trouble” bit.
Enjoy life, and be less like me!